October 14, 2004
-I met my DH
October 24, 2004
-We are officially boyfriend and girlfriend
May 23, 2005
-We got married in a Civil Right at Manila City Hall (but we still celebrate when we first became boyfriend
and girlfriend)
The year 2006
-We started to put up an own Internet Cafe but luck not enough
The year 2007
-We are both busy at work especially me. We are not that serious yet to start our own family although I already wanted to have one as well.
The year 2008
-We went to Dubai to try our luck but ended up we can't do it there. So we went back home for a month.
The year 2009
-We tried in a normal way we could but it ended every month a sad face.
The year 2010
-I started to seek help to an OB-Gyne but at the end of this year was the month I only got so frustrated and
need to do my work here..start taking medicine again.
The year 2011 -
January - March:
OB-Gyne said I need to undergo 6months of medication Start to use Glucophage, Foralivit, Povera. I visit again
my new OB-Gyne referred by my Aunt. She said from my new TVS my PCOS was already minimal not unlike before. and I started to have dominant Follicle size 1.9CM New Hope! Still,l need to continue my medication for another 3 months. and go back in June.
April - June :
Visit again to My OB-Gyne still both ovaries are PCOS but not too much as before. I didn't have a chance
to see if I have dominant follicle during these months but when we visit June 2011 My OB decide for me to
start Fertility Pill for 3 cycles (Clomiphene - Clomid) with Metformin, Foralivit, this time she changes Provera
to Primolut
July 2011 :
1st Cycle Clomid: We didn't have a chance to complete our Baby Dance due to some personal reasons. This month was not good at all for both us and our marriage.
August 2011:
2nd Cycle Clomid: My DH got sick and need to confined in the hospital so again we didn't have a chance to
complete are Baby dance so no chance to conceive again. ='(
September 2011:
3rd Cycle: We started to be more serious again and still fighting the hardest battle of my life. Still crossing our fingers. Dominant Follicle Found on my Right Ovary and started to use OPK.
October 2011:
4th Cycle: My OB asked me to make it 2x a day for clomiphene or ovamit. This cycle was one of the hardest because we were not able to finish our baby dance.
November 2011 :
I started to feel something while waiting for my Aunt Flo because I know the last cycle was not good but only to find our last 5th of November 2011, I took a pt and it came POSITIVE... BFP finally!!
December 2011:
Merry Christmas and very Merry Christmas to my wonderful baby on the way.....
The year 2012
January 2012:
On my 3rd going to 4th Month on the way, We are welcoming the new year with all the blessings and happiness that we could have. I'm now carrying the most bundle of joy that every woman can have. The long wait is finally over.. Happy New Year to Everyone...
February 2012:
On my 4th going to 5th Month on the way, Heats Day Month. Life are been ups and downs but still, we can hide the joyful and happiness for our upcoming little one in our life. Regular check up's to my OB are still on the dates...
March 2012:
On my 5th going to 6th Month on the way, Trying to search good names online, thinking what would be the best one for my little one. I started to feel my little peanut inside. I can really feel the kicks and the moves...
April 2012:
On my 6th going to 7th months on the way, A month that somehow not that happy. Problems are come and go but most importantly my baby is coming very soon...
May 2012:
On my 7th month going to 8th month, Month of May that I will never forget for the rest of my life, My Birth Month, May 5th Baby shower, May 13th I gave birth, May 24th My Mackenzie passed away....... I miss you so much, baby!!
June 2012:
June 13th, my Mackenzie's second month! We attended and offer a mass for him. It's already 2 months since you were born baby and still, the pain is as hard as it can be......
July 2012:
My Mackenzie's 40 days. Again attended and offer a mass for him. How I wish you were with me playing some baby games and hugging your mama so tight... I wanna hold your hands baby for so long as I can be......
August 2012:
While battling my depression and sadness. I keep on eating and food is my comfort way to relieve some loneliness. DH and I are not in good terms either our relationship not going anywhere. Everything was falling apart after losing my son, that's what I always think ...
September 2012:
When I tried to weigh my self while looking at some weighing scale. I found out that I'm getting near to 200lbs, which almost my weight before I gave birth 201lbs. Then suddenly I hate my self and I said this is not happening. And 197lbs is not doing anything right, then I started to go on a diet. Eating one meal in a day without rice...
October 2012:
From 197lbs now 177lbs. I lost 20lbs in a month and counting...with the help of slimming pills that my college friend recommend it. Thank God my appetite drastically went down.
October 23, 2012:
Our 8th years anniversary that we thought were not able to celebrate after the nightmare we have been through. Thank's to my dear DH for he didn't give up on me even when the time was already giving up...
October 24, 2012:
I decided to go back to my OB to check if my PCOS went back. She asks me to have TVs first before visiting her. I had my TVs today and Everything was put into places, in the right places................
November 2012:
We have been ups and downs in our relationship. We never had a serious try again for having a baby. Baby dance sometimes down, sometimes not. It's my DH birthday month, I can't say we are not happy but I can't say we are...
December 2012:
It's Christmas Time. Still longing for my baby sometimes. I wanted to try it again but we are sometimes not able to finish the baby dance. We decided not to seek any help from my OB or use any fertility pills or vitamins. We wanted all-natural if God would give us another chance.
January 2013
Another year came in. It's been 8 months since our dear Mackenzie left us. I seldom cry but I still always remember him. But I know he is happier wherever he is right now. Still no success for trying on our own. Next month will be busy for my sis in law will be here in Manila to visit.
February 2013:
LMP February 17, 2013. We had a vacation in Boracay Island, February 24-27, 2013. We had a baby dance on February 25, 2013, 9th day, for work up we need to start on the 10th day - 20th day every other but in our case, we just did as a normal couple. Another baby dance again but I was not so sure when it was exactly, for we are no plans for trying seriously at first.
November 2012:
We have been ups and downs in our relationship. We never had a serious try again for having a baby. Baby dance sometimes down, sometimes not. It's my DH birthday month, I can't say we are not happy but I can't say we are...
December 2012:
It's Christmas Time. Still longing for my baby sometimes. I wanted to try it again but we are sometimes not able to finish the baby dance. We decided not to seek any help from my OB or use any fertility pills or vitamins. We wanted all-natural if God would give us another chance.
January 2013
Another year came in. It's been 8 months since our dear Mackenzie left us. I seldom cry but I still always remember him. But I know he is happier wherever he is right now. Still no success for trying on our own. Next month will be busy for my sis in law will be here in Manila to visit.
February 2013:
LMP February 17, 2013. We had a vacation in Boracay Island, February 24-27, 2013. We had a baby dance on February 25, 2013, 9th day, for work up we need to start on the 10th day - 20th day every other but in our case, we just did as a normal couple. Another baby dance again but I was not so sure when it was exactly, for we are no plans for trying seriously at first.
March 2013:
*March 2-3, we had an overnight stay in Tagaytay City with our friends and Sister-in-law company. We had a fight, actually, it's just me who had a crazy mind and attitude sometimes toward DH, I don't know why either.
*March 3, Sunday I asked sis in law to drop by for a while at "Little Manoag" just to pray awhile and write a petition letter again just like before, what's with the letter? still asking to grant us another child and give us trust again to make it right this time.
*March 17, expecting my Aunt Flo. But nothing came it. Instead, try to do a test. it came negative as I assume although frankly saying I can see a very very blur not too visible second line but I took it as negative and throw it away.
*March 18, Auntflo still missing...
*March 19, texted my old OB asking where it would be the best thing to try another workup and we are ready for it. She asks me to do some tests and bring the result of TSH, Urinalysis, CBC, TVS on her clinic after. Ask to take Folicard for me and Zemen SX for DH.
*March 20, soon we got home after visiting our friend's house. I tried to use Pregtest again. This time the second line was visible. Not too dark but good enough to say its POSITIVE. I felt nervous and of course so happy! Happiness like I'm the happiest woman alive at that time. Thank you, Lord, for our surprise blessings. Again, you never failed to make us the happiest person alive.
*March 23, I had a TVS Sonologist saw somehow like a gestational sac size like DH and I agreed that this time will be safer and overprotective on our baby. I decided to change our OB for she only one accredited hospital which is Chinese General Hospital and we don't like it anymore. Everything will be different now. Everything will be more careful and for me to follow everything and triple careful. I thank you, Lord, for trusting me again to be a mom. I promise and I swear, I will make it right this time from the start. I'm sorry If sometimes I make a mistake but I promise I will do everything I could to be perfect for my little one this time. Iloveyou my Angel, Mackenzie Guide us together and protect us always.
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