Miscarriage at 6 weeks

June 19,2018
Laundry Done. fixed our clothes. Cooked food for my boys. Around 1130am, while inside the bathroom, Kean and I are taking a bath. Suddenly I felt something came out. when I checked my Panty liner may brown spotting nnman ako . We supposed to bring Kean to Kumon that day and go out to buy some food but unfortunately, this happened so I ask mike DH to bring Kean alone to Kumon and buy some food, I need to take some bed rest.

while my boys are out. I prayed to the Lord sincerely.
" Lord, if this baby is really meant to be with us, please make our baby healthy, complete and strong. But if this is not meant for us yet, kunin mo na si baby gat maaga, na di pa ganoon kahirap tangapin."


June 20,2018
630am I usually wake up this early to go to the bathroom, but when I check again my panty liner. Another Brown spotting. I told to my self. I Think this is it. God Answered my prayers yesterday so quick. Then spotting stop. I just let it go. Hindi ko na siya inisip. Hinayaan ko lang siya.  then DH went to work early afternoon when Kean and I stayed in our room while fixing her school books, I felt something came out again. When I check mine, bright bloody red, I rushed to the bathroom then I saw my panty liner with a small blood clot and bright red blood.

I texted my OB right away, I told her what happened. She asked me to go to the clinic right away to do a scan to check if baby still there. I quickly fix Kean's things, change clothes and grab my Phone and book for grab, Ayoko my drive feeling ko di ko kaya.  I called my nanay, to meet me in the clinic kase baka magkulet si kean di ko kayanin. While inside the clinic waiting for my turn. I'm relaxed I'm ok. I'm talking to my self that I'm ready what ever it takes.

when the sono doing the scan. Only a few questions before she start. why you request for tvs, when is your lmp, who is your OBgyne. Then all throughout the scan, she is very quiet.  I wanted to ask questions, several attemps pero parang amy nag stop sakin magtanong agad. Then when sono says, ok tatangalin ko na. I ask " kamusta po ang baby ko doc?" sabi niya 6 weeks and 1 day still. andito siya. i ask again, " May heartbeat parin po ba?", ah, bakit may heartbeat ba ung last scan mo?" Yes, po. Kelan un? last Sunday po 84bpm. ahh wala pang 100bpm, Ngayon no visible heartbeat na siya. then she said your OB will explain everything to you. then I didn't cry at all at first, sabi ko eto na toh, when I went out of the room, My nanay ask, kamusta.? then I said, wala na siya. while waiting for the scan, I texted my OB, I said no more heart beat doc. Then my follow up message was, "Doc pwede bang natural ko nlang ilabas, di na ako mag papa D&C?" then she replied, yes Anjie no more heart beat na daw, kaso andun pa ang sac at embryo delikado if di tayu nag under go ng D&C .we need to schedule either Thursday or Friday.


I called my brother asking where can I do the D&C, in much lower fee, he ask why and then I said, the baby is gone, then thats the time I cried so hard, I cried so much. All the pain inside, I was able to release it by crying, then I call my husband then he said, wag kana umiyak? diba alam naman na natin ito ang mangyayare. tangapin na natin, mas ok na nalaman natin ng maaga, kesa may problema pala siya mas mahihirapan si baby at tayu. God has a plan.


June 21,2018 
D&C
12noon admit
5pm schedule for OR

Una plang I already inform the nurse na mag IV sakin na mahirap ako hanapan ng vein yun na nga namali ang una napakasakit...

here we go...

I even ask my OB for the last minute, if pwede ba akong mag out patient nlang for less gastos, but she refuse and said better namag pa admit ka anjie, so youc an use your philhealth, most important maka rest ka after the procedure.
I told her I was so afraid with D&C, ever since. OB assure I will not feel anything even before and after the procedure, but I know the anesthesia  na gagamitin sakin eh through IV lang but when I was in OR waiting for my OB kase biglang bumuhos ang malakas na ulan at ang OB ko na ipit sa traffic. So  my anesthesiologist and I nagkwentuhan sandali while lying down in OR bed, sabi niya she will do anes like epidural pero from the waist down lang daw, She doesn't like to use through IV mejo heavy daw ako so meaning mas madaling gamot, mejo worried siya if madami gamot baka di ako agad
magising, so she decided to the epidural and mild sedation.

I was sooo in pain noong ni iinject na for anesthesia sa spinal ko, I cant remember how many needles I felt. 4 ot 5? pero ang naalala ko is kung gaano kasakit. I just prayed that  I hope sana matapos na lahat ang gabi na yun...mas masakit pa when I had CS for 2x

I stayed in the hospital for a day, first time ko di makasama sa pag sleep si kean. Dinala ni nanay si Kean sa hospital, I have heard na super excited siya makita ako to go to the hospital kaso naka sleep na siya nung pumunta siya, I ask my brother to pick up nanay and Kean kase di na sila kakasya sa hospital and my niece stay with me in the hospital and DH need to go to work.

I know God has a purpose for everything. I know God has a reason why this happened to us. to our baby. I may not understand it now, but soon I know God will show me the way. I  love you Lord.

1st time Spotting

June 16,2018 Saturday
DH and I had our usual weekend date together in our favorite place Monkey Mic KTV. The night before we attend mass I have notice Frequent urination and several times had a watery discharge. Several times which I have noticed it's not usual.  No foul smell, no other color, clear watery discharge. While hearing mass I went to church restroom twice because there are times  I can't control it anymore. Then it stops. I remember I have read that watery discharge was an also a sign of early pregnancy symptoms so  I know its just normal thing and I didn't put any attention on it. I inform DH about it and he asks if that is ok?  Nahihilo din ako noon, ayoko nakakaamoy ng pabango, but that time yung niece ko nagperfume siya so sobrang bahong baho ako at hilong hilo.


Usually, we have dinner after mass with my brothers family but he cant make it for having a commitment ahead. So DH and I decided to go to our favorite KTV along congressional avenue. During our stay there for 2 hours, I still have some watery discharge but no cramps or anything so I know I'm doing ok.

when we got home. I have noticed I had brown spotting. I started to panic and feel unease. I tell to my DH  nag spotting ako, I texted my OB that I'm worried about my baby. I wanted to take the TVS next day but it was Sunday most of the OB SONO are not available during Sundays. OB asks me to take a bed rest, I was crying and was not able to sleep. Although the spotting stop right away.  Still, I don't feel ok about it. This is first time experience even from my past 2 pregnancy kaya mejo kinakabahan ako at di ako ok.

July 17, 2018 Sunday
Next day DH ask me if I wanted to go to ER and have it check. I said I really wanted it pero it's quite expensive compared to regular TVs but we still push through on it. Regardless of the cost. OB says I can go to ER Metro North Hospital, Sono fee will range 2-3k , Scan will be 1400 plus the ER Fee. Then we waited in ER I did the urinalysis to ruled out some issue luckily it came out normal. After like 2-2.5 hrs sonologist came it and she did the scan,  at first she had several questions, while doing the scan I wanted to ask hows my baby pero di muna ako nag sasalita, ayoko siya mag scan kase ang sakit sakit niya mag scan, it seems na nagmamadali din siya kase, maybe because its Sunday. then sabi niya nung mejo patapos na siya,  baby still there, still may heartbeat padin  but the range still low 84bpm sabi nman niya I just had a recent scan last thurs so mejo wala masyado pang pangbabago.

Then she suddenly mentioned, pero mejo maliit ang sac niya ha, Inform mo na din si OB mo about this, and I will try to contact her as well kase I know her.  She said, if she was my OB she will ask me to check on me every week but still depends on my OB and I will still need to follow my OBGYNE, but when she said the sac is very small, hopefully, a good progress whatever happened, I'm not God. we don't know what will happen, let's just pray everything will be well. Mejo kinakabahan na ako noon. Sabi ko na nga ba there is something wrong with the sac. then I texted my OB right away, sabi niya. "Yes. anjie, mejo maliit nga ang sac, wala nman tayu magagawa to make it bigger, let's just hope for a good progress after 2 weeks"

After the true its, I don't feel ok anymore. Kinausap ko si DH I told him about the findings. He keeps on asking me why may ganon pa pla nagyayare? I said I don't know. I don't like to think anymore, I'm so stressed already. I said I will just leave everything to God.

We went home like nothing happened. I just stay positive and lift up my faith more to God.

next check up June 28
3x a day Duphaston
1x a day Folic Acid

ER Bill:
Sono Fee; 2,000
Hospital fee: 2242.20
total; 4,242.20

God bless us. I trust you with all my heart. I will leave it all to you my Lord. Amen

3rd Check up 3rd Pregnancy

Hello, we supposed to have our 3rd checkup, 3rdd scan for this pregnancy last June 07, pero hindi kami naka punta kase sumundo kmi sa airport my sister in law arrived from Australia. So I asks my OB to reschedule either earlier or after June 07, then she schedule us on the next following thursday, July 14 which is today!!!


Anyway, to tell you the truth today's check up was a little kabado at first. When my OB doing the scan, she asked me "Anjie, its been 3 weeks since our last scan, ganito parin pa siya kaliit noon?"  then while looking at it, she finally saw the embryo, and something is flickering inside, it was our baby's Heart Beat. Yoohoo!! At first kinabahan ako, I  thought there is no progress at all.  But there's our baby, 6weeks 1day in measurement but if we are going to based again in my LMP 8W5D.

But during the scan I have noticed something, the gestational sac was a little small, almost masasakop na ni baby ung sac niya. I remember during my first and 2nd pregnancy hindi nman ganun siya kaliit. I didn't bothered to ask my OB I was just thinking maybe it will be bigger on the next following scan. what important was for me then, we saw the embryo with the Fetal heartbeat of 82BPM.

OB said still lower than 100bpm maybe because still early and it will progress after few more weeks.
I remember sabi ni OB when CRL measurement is already 5mm dapat may heartbeat na but for baby,  CRL 4.39mm pero may heartbeat na , it is a good sign daw. So, I feel happy and relieved.  Pero, I was confused why wala padin binibigay na Prenatal Book, anyways maybe next check up.

still taking Duphaston 2x a day, and Folic Acid (purifol) 1x a day

See you , till next update!!

My Sweet Baby

I just want to share my Big Boy Kean age 4 years and 6 months.Talagang super big boy na siya. I have noticed, he still sweet as before. He always love to kiss and hug me. My niece took this photos when she stayed in our place for a week, bakasyon daw siya ulit hehe. Nag papa carwash kmi when my niece took this pictures. sorry I look so wasted but I don't care I really love this moment. So I wanted to share it with all of you.

My Kean at 4.6 years old

We Love Summer

May 28, 2018/ Monday

The Millados and us decided to plan our summer getaway for 2018. They knew some nice resort. We plan to schedule it on Monday for less traffic at less ang mga tao sa resort. Knowing summer in the Philippines laging punuan ang mag resort regardless kung san place or kung gaano kalapit or kalayo.

BAKASYUNAN
Tanay, Rizal
Pilila, Hulo Rizal

The place is big. So many activities you can try. Nice rooms and they have 2 big pools with kiddie pool in each side. We decided to bring our own food instead of buying inside mejo pricey kase yun lang may corkage din eh.  Madami na din plang nag shooting for ABS CBN na teleserye dito. The place really has a good ambiance.  Yung first pool upon entrace you can already check this one na agad, mejo bungad siya talaga, bar cafe on the side as well. May BBQ station pero mejo malayo siya sa first pool, yung Second Pool asa bandng lower part na mejo maglalakad ka talaga pababa and merun din BBQ station na mejo mas malapit sa 2nd pool . We choose to stay in second pool, we notice less people siya and mas ok ang view. It looks like we rent the whole place kase wala talagang Tao hehe....


We paid around: 2,200. 00 plus I think (sorry I forget the exact amount)
4adults upon entrance bibigyan nila kayu ng baller.
2 kids (4years and 5 years old/free)
2 kids (7years and 9years old / half)
Mejo may mali ako dito, I declare my niece as 8 years old ata or 9 pero around 11-12na ata siya hehe)
Corkage for 2 food: 200.00 (we ask if we can have a discount , so instead of 200 each, 100 each
nlang)

here are some photos were taken.

May God Bless our trip always. Thank you, Lord for making us safe every day. Amen

My Brother's Birthday

May 27, 2018

Sunday, It's my kuya's Birthday. I told him to eat in Gerry's Grill Congressional ave. QC. It's near to our house and I know food is good too. reasonable enough.  If someone's celebrating their birthday in Gerry's Grill they will give you the complimentary small size of Leche Plan. and they will sing a happy birthday song if you request.

Bill is around 4,000.00
Including Icetea 2 pitcher
Beef Karekare
Half fried Chicken
Pakbet
Laing
Grill Squid
Lechon Kawali and Tokwat ( my favorite)
2 Pork Sisig
Rice 12 cups

Here are some photos taken that day.