Cycle 4: 13Day Leading Follicle

I just had a Follicle Monitoring this early morning. I went to the Women's Ultrasound Clinic early so I can be first in the list =) but surprisingly when I came it even though the clinic is still close First Patient is already there, it means someone is earlier than me haha. 

Anyway, My Follicle Monitoring Or ultrasound result was so great! I can see that only few immature follicle are visible in my ovaries like 4-5 pcs I think and if last cycle I had  matured follicle on the right ovaries and this time I have 1.5cm x 1.2cm on the left I was so surprise although I already expecting it a bit because the dosage of my clomid this cycle is a double that usual dosage for my past 3 cycles. and this time i only have 1 leading and 4 small follicles around on my left not like before i think it was 10 small follicles =') and the size today was a bit ok unlike before all less than 1.0cm. 

I went to my OB today for another check up she said my response in clomid 100mg is great. Although my OB said it's still consider PCOS but not as much as before and not worst at all. She said I need to have repeat FM on Thursday Day 15 what makes me surprise, she said if the result of my FM on Thursday will be good and my follicle get bigger she will give me shot of PREGYNL although I already heard about this on my  recent readings about TTC women's . This  is to able to burst the follicle on time so the couple can maximize or the OB can state the exact date of baby dance but still I feel so nervous. (what is PREGYNL?). Anyway let see  on thusday what will be the result and still hoping for God's miracle.  some OB Gyne can consider my situation bit PCOS anymore because I was able to produce good eggs already. =')

I asked the sonologist who did my Follicle Monitoring if the clomid  had a side effect of making your lining thin. But she said no, my lining was even perfect and in good size as she said knowing I had a double dosage of my clomid this time.  I also asked my OB about it but she said not really true she said it depends on woman body but most of the time women conceived on clomid itself. Feel so Positive!!

I'm happy but on the other hand a bit sad because even I relay the result of my FM and what my OB said to my DH not to mention I went to my OB alone because he has to work he just had a simple reaction on it. At the end of the day, even i already inform DH that i had a good follicle we didn't do our usual baby dance ='((( from this moment I was holding my lower abdomen while saying "Please don't burst yet, hubby and I didn't do our baby dance!!!" I ended up crying!!  and still hoping and never lose hope!  Cross fingers.

Sad

Today I feel so sad and alone.  Alone fighting in this battle. Today supposed to be its my Day10 the First day schedule of our baby dance for my 4th cycle of clomid but suddenly DH told me "Maybe we can start after 2-3 days?" then i don't know why i just quickly answered like "It's up to you!!" then he said what does my OB said anyway, i told him the same process the same schedule. He was thinking because I maybe again will have a late leading follicle just like last month when I had a FM on day17 we just found out i have 1.4cm leading follicle but we started to baby dance at day10 to day20 as my Ob schedule. I told him what is the use of going to my OB for check ups and work ups when we are not going to follow the schedule or rules given by my doctor. I felt like he is already getting lazy to fight this battle with me, why I had a feeling that he is loosing hope already/

Then suddenly maybe he felt some guilt about what i said then he suddenly laid down on bed and asking for baby dance, I feel so angry and feel so sad at that moment and wanted to cry so my initial reaction was really negative. I said it's already late I'm not in the mood. He even joke about it by telling me " don't worry I will let you in the mood " then smile but still he didn't able to force me to do it that night.  I just heard him said " If you dont want it then find wait till the next cycle!" i didn't mind that but I just pray instead to forgive me and to understand my feelings and I said to the Lord i will let him decide for my dream to be a mom.

I slept with worries in my mind. I been having a hard time to fight this battle since then financially, emotionally and spiritually. But I know God is always there to guide me and support me i just always said that I will lay everything now with him. 

 

My Very First Cycle of Clomiphene

Happy but sad. It was July 2011 when I started to take Fertility Pill Clomid or Clomiphene. It is my 1st Cycle but ended up with nothing. I was able to take my medicines on time but due to personal reasons, my DH was sick at that time and needed to be confined in the hospital, we don't have the chance but to accept and believed that there will be another chance again.

 we were not able to complete all the BD throughout the cycle. The BD was schedule by my OB-Gyne but sad to say didn't had a chance to do it all. I just take it as a challenge after all it's the health of my DH is important thing to think first during that time.

Let's move forward and be positive....

God always be there beside us..

My First visit to OB-Gyne, My very First TVS

When I decided to create this blog I began to track back. From the day I started and my first time to visit a OB-Gyne was the first time for me to began this battle. It was then March 16, 2010 I remember when I undergone TVS I was so nervous I don't know what to do. That was the first time I found out that I was PCOS. At first I don't feel that bothered because the OB said it can be cured in few months of medication, and I need to lose weight I'm consider obese in my height. Then when I went back home I tried to search about Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. I've learn that one of the signs was gaining more weight, excess hair on the face and hard time to conceive because PCOS women are not ovulating.

So what did I do? is just to follow the OB-Gyne prescription.She gave me medicine for a month and then after I finished that medicine my period came but again, I didn't went back to OB and just go with the flow.
then after a few months came and still, nothing happen........

Medicine Given:
-Metformin 500mg
-Folic Acid
-Povera

I want to share my TVS and Finding on my very first checkup.