at 12 weeks

Oops, baby grow so fast indeed. Comparing to our last scan baby now more visible and complete. My precious now is exactly 12 weeks. My end of First trimester. In away more ok ending the critical trimester in the whole pregnancy.

What happened to us from the last scan? Ooh my heartburn attacks me so hard. I even cried sometimes because of the pain im into. Some home remedy already done but none of them seems so effective. I need to feed my self in a very small amount almost every 1-2 hours or else acid reflux will visit me again.

What makes more harder? I don't even have appetite for the past few weeks . Oh em gee. But still forcing my self to eat. Awww...

Baby, im ready to all the aches and pains in exchange for you to be healthy and strong. I will just close my eyes and think that all sacrifices is for you and no one else. iloveyou baby seeing you again and again is the best time of my life.

Iloveyou,baby! I will always pray and beg to God that you will stay good,strong , healthy and happy inside mommys tummy. :)


-Being pregnant is not easy, but with the Help of the Lord with our prayers everything will be ok,Amen.

SSS- Mat1

As we all know, in Manila Philippines. if you are employed to a company most probably you are a member of SSS (Social Security System) where you can get some benefits depends on your needs.

As for me, Last May 15,2013 we decided to file my Mat1 or maternity notification 1, so by the time I need to deliver my baby they would give you money assistant, how much? There's a computation depends on your monthly contribution after filing the Mat2 or Maternity Mat 2 Application.

I've heard the SSS increase their given benefits to all the members. I hope So :)

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Happy Angel's Day

May 12,2013 sunday, Mother's Day. I remember last year It was mothers day when mackenzie born, now its Mothers Day again, so many memories to remembet but the most is I want to remembet the mothers day 

that I was able to deliver the most wonderful baby during that moment. 

 

May 13,2013, it my Angel's Day, we planned to visit him at the cementery,pray my rosary and greet him a very very heavenly birthday to our dear Angel above. 

Mom cooked spaghetti and we boughy cakes for my Angel,simple things just to let him know we always remember his special day.

But whats hurt the most on the 24th of May, we need tk remember his death annivesary, we have to face the reality that is it, a year past and still the pain reminds me just like yesterday. 

I love you anak! Sobrang miss na kita!! 

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In Quiet Place

Just last April 24, 2013, same day when my tatay turn 64, we already put my little Angel's ash in more quiet place. 

It's been my longest plan to look for a pendant where I can put some few ashes of my angel. But this time last few days before April 24 came, hubby and I worked it out where we can get and buy that necklace with urn pendant, luckily after 2nd try we found it. 

Now even my angel is not with us anymore, I can still hold some part of him anytime. 

I miss you anak. You and our new baby on the way are the most precious and best ever that happened in my life. I love you, We love you and we will always will.

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166 BPM

It was again the best time of my life. Been waiting for this date and been paranoid from my last scan and check up, but now I feel more ok and relieve hearing my baby's heartbeat while doing my 3rd TVs, Oh God, it was again the most precious sounds I ever heard in my entire just like the first time I've heard makzie's heartbeat.

Well getting scans and check up's within the First trimester was really a paranoia month for me. But as soon as I found out and saw the heartbeat of my dearly baby, it's just like a medicine for me making me feel calm and relief.

Baby now is 7 weeks and 5 days to 8 weeks and 1 day as Gestational age but 8 weeks 4 days from my last LMP. I remember while lying on the bed waiting for OB perform the scan, I pray and pray and prayed a lot Our Father... Hail Mary. While holding my rosary necklace, saying repeatedly "please Lord make my baby healthy and ok! Please, Lord!"

Then my OB 's first question, "last time we just saw the yolk sac right?!" Then I answer "Yes doc and positive with an embryonic pole!" Then she replied, "Yeah, now the baby is bigger and looking good!" Then smile on my face started to show, she slowly slides the monitor on my side and showing me the heartbeat of my baby "166BPM" and hearing not too loud beating "dugdug dugdug!" OMG, I just repeatedly say " Oh Thank You, Lord, Thank You, Lord.."

You can even saw the light circle around my little peanut just like a bubble which is the yolk sac. So clear and so rounded. My God I can find the right words how to say Thank You to our dear Lord above.

All  I know, God always there for us. On his own right time. God never failed to give us surprises, we just have to be patient enough and never stop believing that God never stops loving us and showing us how blessed we are.

Got my second prenatal book again. Happy! This time Duphaston need to stop somehow, because its progesterone can be one of the reasons why I'm having frequent nausea and vomiting, OB said that now I'm on my 8 weeks and no signs of spotting or severe pain, we can stop the Duphaston and continue taking folic acid but after  2 weeks change to folic acid with vitamin B-complex.

"Till next bonding on TVS my precious. Mama so in love with you. I know Kuya' makzie in heaven and papa are so proud for both of us. i love you my little peanut. Stay healthy and pray to Lord to protect us and guide us until 9 months. I will always feel you baby. We love you so dearly- Mama, Papa, and 👼+kuya makzie

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1 year

Days run so fast as we always say, Last May of 2012 was the GREAT yet the WORST nightmare of my life. Great because I was able to born my very first son on May 13th, on Mother Day's itself. Worst because he left me after 11 days of seeing him alive. As for all the parents, especially mom's out there, there is no such thing as a recovery period, right? there is no Mother who will says, "I'm ok, I already accept that I lose my baby" Yes, we sometimes say we are "ok" because we need to move on, they would say It's just part of our life that sometimes we cannot explain why but we just have to accept it. I know... but whatever you do, even how long or how many years had passed you will never forget the hurt and the pain you been through when you lose a child. 

Now the month of May is coming on our way again. My dear Mackenzie will turn 1. His urns are placed in our home, in my mom's altar, where she prays every night, every morning and every day of her life. After a year they say we need to put my dear Angel in a quiet place. We are planning to put him beside my Father's in law in Eternal Garden but a lot of paper works, issues that need to be solved, for its the side of my husband who has the right on that lot, then we decided to place our little Angel where my grandmothers reside (father side). I didn't know that my mom and my dad already talked about it so I and DH decided that it would be good as well. So my father just needs to talk to my uncle who is in charge of that, will ask what will else we need to do.

A lot of times in my life since it happened, I always think of him. I always say goodnight and I love you to my Angel before I go to sleep after saying a little prayer every night. Every night, after doing that prayer, I always remember his face, his lovely face, his eyes that so stunning even as young as he is. I remember seeing him crying without a sound, How painful it was for him, I remember how great my baby is. Looks like his dad and his nose was so good. I can help sometimes to shed tears again remembering how happy I am if he is here with me now. Playing with me, waiting for our new baby...

My Dear Mackenzie, My Baby, My Angel, I know you always with us, I know you always protect us in your own way, I know you are one of the reasons for the new baby coming on our way, I know you pray for this to our Lord to bless us another baby because you want us to be happy. I know you are always guiding us from Heaven. Baby, mama wants to say "I miss you so much!!", "I want to hug and kiss you every day of my life!" Thank you, baby, for making me so strong, I didn't know that I can be that strong till you came into my life. You will always be in my Heart no matter what. 

I Thank You, LORD for guiding us and our little Angel whose beside you always. Thank you for hearing our prayers for the New Surprise gift you have given us. I can't find the right words to say how much we are so thankful for your grace, glory, and blessings. I LOVE YOU LORD WITH ALL MY HEART!!

      ILOVEYOU, MY ANGEL MACKENZIE! 

Happy Birthday Anak!

Colds, Cough and Early Pregnancy

It's summer time in Manila, and its really hot hot. As we all know, when we are pregnant the feeling is even more hotter for us. As my new ob advise me not to go out for 2 weeks for weather is not good some illness and viruses can be harm on us (with my baby). 

From the last  check up I did, since then we never really  go out like just near to our house if we just need to buy some food or something. I stayed home since then. But still colds and coughs caught me.

From April 4 I think, If I remember I catch a colds so I was so afraid it will turn into cough for its gonna be more harder for me by then. I tried some home remedy like lemon and honey, gurgle salt with warm water. They said honey and lemon is best home remedy and salt is best to fight bacteria for sore throat, for I don't like to drink medicines as long as I can make it all natural. Even my OB would say its safe. I'd rather choose the natural medicines. 

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I've been drinking lemon and honey 2x a day for the past 3 days but like what they say, it will make you feel better but not like right away. Everytime I drink lemon and honey somehow it will be relieve but not for too long. So I need to drink again water and water and water. I usually gurgle warm water and salt every morning and before go to bed to make me feel better for how many hours and before sleep so it will make me more relax.

As my history, as you all know, I wanted really to be all the best for this second pregnancy. Even how much I wanted not to be sick like catching a colds or cough, even staying at home your not safe. Virus are everywhere specially some people you live with are going out for work and going back home after. I was so panic and quite nervous for I always think maybe it will harm my baby inside, my precious baby growing inside. So Started to search and search and somehow again, I feel more better for so far I always read like its usually normal for early pregnancy due to immune system of the mom are getting low to protect the growing baby inside. 

Here are some sites you can check on:

http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20070823215102AAWqRyG

http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20110910175332AAGFbWy
http://www.babymed.com/pregnancy-symptoms/cold-and-flu-symptoms-pregnancy
http://voices.yahoo.com/first-trimester-pregnancy-signs-pregnant-1545503.html?cat=70

Anyhow, we pregnant women need to take good care of our selves really. I always wearing mask whenever we are going out and my company is always tissue and some face towel to cover up. Sneezing is hard for us and cough is totally not easy but we live in a place we cannot control what out side. We just need to eat right and drink right all the time.